June 09, 2008
I have been feeling happier these past three weeks. I noticed that I have been laughing again, like I once did. I remember that my dad, used to make fun of me because I always giggled, in fact I was told by others that I would light up a room. I get a glimpse of my old self from time to time and it feels good. I wish I can always feel happy, but I was told that it will come in droves. It depends on the day and if I am faced with any triggers. I try very hard to “reprogram” my thoughts, and look at things more positively. Whenever, I think of something negative, I try to replace the thought really quickly. I think coping is all about re framing your mental cognition. This will take time and effort. I guess, what bothers me the most now, is adapting to change. I look back, and have experienced a lot of change really quickly. In fact, I think sometimes we tend to gravitate toward what is most familiar to us, but not what is the best for us.