July 01, 2007
I want to die. This whole experience is too painful, and my cat lies here choking beside me. Although my husband was emotionally abusive towards me, I can’t stop thinking that he is with someone else. It is driving me insane! I now know what happened. They were seeing each other during our marriage and he has found what he terms as “greener pastures”.
I just came home from going out with my friend and my parents told me ( yelled at me) that I better start taking care of myself because I was going downhill. My friend was in the middle of this. My ex had continuously been telling me that I was going to hell. I am Catholic and I was so worried that I was going to hell, so I talked to my friend. She listened and told me that I wasn’t. She told me that I could attend bible study with her and that she would talk to her pastor for me. She thinks that might help me.I have not made up my mind if that would be good for me. I keep on reminding myself that my councillors say it is not my fault.They say I can’t analyze a sick mind and that I have been so vulnerable in that abusive relationship. Thank God it is over. I have to build myself up again.
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